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The purpose of our Intergroup is to more effectively reach the sex addict in the Orange County area who still suffers. We meet the second Thursday of each month from 6:00-8:00 p.m. at the First Methodist Church of Costa Mesa, 420 W. 19th St., located at the end of the 55 Freeway across from Triangle Square. From 6:00-6:45 p.m. we may work together on an outreach project as we share snacks and fellowship, followed by the business meeting. If you can’t make it, meeting minutes are published on our website. All SAA members are welcome. We are still a young organization and want your ideas!
On January 26, 2013: Retreat #2!
After a successful one-day retreat last August , the Orange County Intergroup of SAA is sponsoring its second retreat on Saturday, January 26, 2013 at beautiful Mariners Church, 5001 Newport Coast Drive, Irvine. The entire second floor of the Life Development Building will be ours for the day, 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. The agenda comprises Steps 4, 5, 6, and 7, plus a Tools of Recovery panel discussion. A light breakfast and lunch are included in the cost of $25 per person. Register and pay at http://ocisaa.org using PayPal, or send a check to OCISAA, P.O. Box 12424, Costa Mesa, CA 92627. Indicate “Retreat” on your check. A few scholarships are available to those who can’t afford the fee. Please sign up early, or at least notify us of your intent to come, so we can plan the right amount of food to serve. You can check for updates at our website: http://ocisaa.org.
Each month, we publish a personal but anonymous story of recovery. Stories should be written in the first person (“I”); speak from your experience, strength, and hope; and be limited to approximately one typewritten page or less. Please submit your story to firstname.lastname@example.org. We may edit submissions for reasons of space, clarity, and appropriate language. Here is this month’s story:
My Recovery Wasn’t Automatic
My adoptive parents, an alcoholic dad and mentally ill mom, divorced when I was 7. My mother remarried when I was 10, and my new father mentally and physically abused me. Punishment was often restriction to my room with no TV or radio for long periods. That led to me believe that isolation and fantasy were safe places, and they became the twin pillars of my addiction. I discovered my dad’s porn stash and felt an intense rush while looking at it. I began masturbating and used this to escape from a hard and unhappy childhood. (cont.)
As time went by, I would fantasize, do rituals before acting out, and then crash unhappily. I had no boundaries for myself or others, and I used unhealthy relationships to further my sex addiction. I objectified women, never thinking of them as persons with their own needs. I also tried alcohol and drugs, but they never gave me the rush that sex did. My behavior became riskier, approaching women just to have sex, visiting prostitutes, and moving toward peeping and public exposure. Then came the internet. It transfixed me for hours, but afterward left me feeling exhausted and disgusted with myself. I lost jobs and turned down a great job opportunity due to my addiction. I got into a bad marriage for 2 years and looked at people as interruptions in my acting out. The lowest point came when my now ex-wife found porn on my computer and kicked me out.
I came to realize that something was very wrong with me. I read Out of the Shadows and was shocked at how many attributes I shared with sex addicts. I started reading the Bible and praying. One night while praying for help, I heard God speak to me, saying, “Do not be afraid, I am here.” I immediately felt relief and safety. I started going to sex addict recovery meetings, but it took a year to feel like I really belonged. After the meetings, a couple of guys would have fellowship with me. I might not have kept coming back if not for them. I volunteered for service work, and I got a sponsor who taught me to work on my negative thinking by reading about tools of recovery and writing down 3 positive things I noticed each day. Man, was that hard!
However, I wasn’t working the steps or making phone calls. Then my sponsor moved away. I made some temporary progress alone, losing the urge to act out in ways that could lead me to jail, and stopping using pornography and visiting unhealthy places. I started going to church, reading scripture, and praying often. I started working the steps with a group and started making calls. However, when my step group ended, so did my step work and everything else. I slowly started viewing porn again and fantasizing. Additional stress with the health of one of my children (I had remarried by now) helped me to rationalize acting out. After almost a year of sobriety, I dropped my new sponsor, had many slips, and became stuck in my old cycle of acting out.
I eventually returned to my senses and began working the steps again, more diligently this time. I reached a turning point when I wrote my 4th Step inventory and shared it with my sponsor in Step 5. But recovery really came alive when I started practicing the 12th Step – helping others – even before I got there. Once I learned to get out of myself and think more of others and their needs, a lot of my shame and guilt left. I look forward to 18 months of sobriety on January 21. I have set new inner and middle circle boundaries. I pick up the phone that used to weigh 900 pounds, but only weighs 6 ounces now. I pray and ask for help for myself and others daily, reminding myself to be humble, realizing I am powerless over everything except my own thoughts and actions. I sponsor fellow sex addicts. I fill service positions. I plan to keep working the steps as long as I live.
The spiritual part of isolation from God and others was a huge obstacle I had to overcome. I am able to handle life without the helpless urge to act out when I am stressed or uncomfortable. My personal relationships continue to improve as I get more recovery. “Progress rather than perfection,” “better not bitter,” “this too shall pass,” and “one day at a time” are things I try to keep in mind. Thinking through Steps 1-4 is something I try to practice daily, as well as practicing the 10th Step of taking my daily inventory and whenever I am wrong promptly admitting it and making amends.
The resources I use are the SAA Green Book, the AA Big Book, Hope & Recovery, the Bible (especially Proverbs), 12 Steps & 12 Traditions, the Life Recovery Bible, and continually learning and reading about recovery. I work the steps and leave the rest to God. It DOES work if you work it! If I can do it, ANYONE can!
Intergroup Representatives Still Needed
If your meeting lacks an Intergroup rep, please tell your secretary that you need one. For more information, contact us at email@example.com. We highly recommend you find someone to fill this service position.
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Title: What is the name of your event?
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SAA Meeting News
Monday, 7:00-8:00 p.m.
Women’s SAA Book Study Meeting: reading & sharing on the SAA Green Book; general open sharing
Open to women only
Costa Mesa Alano Club, 2040 Placentia Ave., Costa Mesa
For more information call Lori, 949-444-1554
Monday, 7:00-8:30 p.m.
AA Big Book Study – bring your AA “Big Book” for this SAA meeting
Open – Mixed – Newcomers (newcomers RSVP 6:45)
Valley Alano Club, Room 107, 10980 Arrow Route, Rancho Cucamonga 91730
Across White Oak from Post Office
For more information call Dexter, 909-218-0502
Two meetings have suspended operations until a new location is found:
Monday and Wednesday, 12:00-1:00 p.m.
Formerly held at 23151 Moulton Parkway, Laguna Woods
Call Scott, 949-547-3412 for updates
Orange County Intergroup Officers and Committee Chairs
Our leaders are but trusted servants; they do not govern. — Tradition 2
Chair: Thomas P.
Vice Chair: Ron R.
Digital Communications: Neal B.
Inreach: Rosario, firstname.lastname@example.org
Outreach: Gary H., email@example.com
Literature: Ron C.
Treasurer: Phil G. (2nd signer on checks: Brian A.)
Secretary: Jacque J.
Parliamentarian: Doug C.
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